joi, 28 februarie 2008

LOVE

Love ,we are told, is the greatest and most powerful feelings of all…Is this really trough? ARE we still capable of IT is this world in which the most consistent thing is MONEY! It changes everything, our pure core is altered by it ,we no longer persist to be filled of the essence of innocence we are born with. If we stop believing we lose everything.

Who once said to –to love and to loose it is better then to never have loved at all-and I believe it because I felt it. I HAVE NO REGRETS.

I don’t want to tell the story of how I found true love and then by stupidity, circumstances I, have managed to lose it ,but now all this is irrelevant because u can not change the past just learn from it’s mistakes! So we are forced to move on by the mind, but what if our rebellious heart is lingering in the past then we are truly lost! U can not with this battle …

Now I am caught in the past urging after the drug of love and it’s destructive effects!

I must have the certitude that it is over. The certitude of hopelessness makes the fact that I have lost the chance to live with my true love or my significant other so wrong ,but at least I am certain of it !He was the person that his soul presence made me shiver, filling my heart with joy ,my face with a constant smile…and he finally made me feel alive. I have lost it doe, many may say now that I must move on a search for another person that can give me that ,never loose hope and so on that psycho blabber but I say bullshit! It’s the greatest thingh that could happen to me! I don’t who the fool was invented this crap of the fact that u can only be happy when u find your other half .They just say it to make us fear solitude, but I know that reaching perfect solitude, just the fact that u surrender completely to yourself will make u the strongest person ever and it will bring the certitude u have search for so long!

I am not afraid, maybe I am wrong in my believes, but at least I am wrong but certain!

And still I am afraid, so much that I am frozen stiff in time unable to move foreword. Our fear are those who stop up reaching real greatness , the person who said by losing all fear we become free ,was so true and still …show me those who have mastered this…facing the FEAR is the first step but if we would be to have none at all that would make us goods. But tell me now how can I move if what scares me most is the future , the uncertainty , most of all changes so how can u faze something u don’t see. I am the person who loves living in the past, the past is safe nothing can heart me I can envoy , but it can’t be healthy , so u can’t grow …but I am so sacred of the unknown of the future that I don’t want to move , I just want everything to stay the same …but that would mean that I will stay unhappy …so fuck it …I am really scrude…yippy! I am a lost case …help me or let me root in my on misery cause fear has paralyzed me.

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